NOTE: This post may seem repetitive and boring, but its for our family history. Please understand our need to document so much. My sister in law said it best on her blog, "A person only has one earthly father."Well, it has been a long and crazy time this last month. I am finally feeling emotions locked away come to the surface. It has been very comforting to finally release them as I am at home with nothing pressing going on...hopefully.
Well, we all know that the silver lining for me is my family. Kehlton is now one month old.

I have felt bad becuase he has had such a hectic life already and his mommy seems really crazy with lots of running around. His doc called him 'fat and rosy' which appearantly is a compliment. I think he is adorable of course!
Shortly after Kehl was born, my foster kids went home. I am so proud of their mommy! She loves them so much and she is a wonderful person! I am so glad we have become such good friends. I hope they will be part of my life forever!

It has been really hard letting them go. Especially when I am so emotion right now anyway.
Then of course with Jere's Dad leaving us, it seems really hard to move on. Everytime we would go to Jeremy's parents house, Kaylah would run right past Grandma saying, 'Where's Bampa?!' Now, whenever we talk about Grandpa she says, 'Shhhh! Bampa's Sweeping!' Because that is how she saw him at the funeral viewing. The hardest part about it all, is after the funeral everyone goes on with their life. Its almost cold and cruel the way they do it. Its unintentional of course, and part of the healing process. Its just hard to fathom, when we still don't believe he is actually gone. I still want to call him for advice.

Here are more pictures from funeral week.

Jeremy would not leave his mom's side all week. I took over all the kids so that he could be with his mom.(wow! I never realized how many I actually have! Holy Crap!) It was really sweet and endearing to see him take care of her. Plus he looks totally HOT in his church suit!

Liz, this is proof to the both of us that our kids actually do love each other! Its hope that they might one day get along! :-)

Ricky and Shair consoling their Grandma. I though this was so sweet.

The Pallbearers

Kelty, Savannah & Rheesah playing on the tire swing that Grandpa made for them.





And here are some cute snapshots that were also taken that day.
We then went to Salt Lake City to spend more time with family. It was part of the 'not wanting to move on' phase. We did not get to celebrate Kaylah's Birthday on her actual Birthday because that was the day Grandpa died. I was so thankful that Jeremy's whole family came and made a big deal of Kaylah turning three. They were so sweet.

This one is part of the treats that came from the pinata. Totally stylin Mae!
This is where Uncle Lynn said he had a surprise for the girls, and that they had to close their eyes. How Cute
The next day in SlC, we went to tour the Oquirrh Mountain temple. We went out to eat for Liz's Bithday and it was fun. You'll have to read the following post for the complete story.
If there is one thing the last month has taught us, its that we need to live in the moment and enjoy all the little things. I am no longer going to complain that the dishes aren't done when I am playing with my kids or spending time with family.
Lastly, I couldn't have made it through this last month without my MOM! I love you and thank you for everything you have helped me with. You are always the silent giver. Your the best! Don't cry when you read this though...okay! Love YOU!